When it comes to the holidays, you probably hear this question from your loved ones a lot, “What do you want?”
My first thought was always REALLY? Do you really need to ask me what I want? Then the little gremlins start to come in saying things like, “If you really loved me, you would know the subtle hints I have been providing to you on the things that I love and enjoy.” or “If I tell you what I want, then it takes all the fun out it.”
I have to stop myself in my tracks. I have been focusing more on looking inward and listening to my heart before I let my head have its way.
Why is my loved one asking me this question? Well, it’s because they love me and want to do something nice for me. They don’t want to purchase something that I won’t like. They are really thinking about me when asking the question. So rather than judge them for asking the question, I decided to sit down and think about what do I REALLY DESIRE?
Hmmm…What DO I REALLY DESIRE?
This is a tough one for us to answer sometimes. I was raised in a faith-filled home and was shown to sacrifice my wants and desires for others. If I wanted to be a good person, I needed to put my selfish needs aside and focus on others before myself. I was also encouraged that I should only buy things that were absolutely necessary. Before purchasing something I should evaluate whether I needed or wanted it. I ended up being very frugal and stingy with money as I became worried that there would never be enough. It was sinful for me to want more than was absolutely needed in my life, when there are many starving and less fortunate people in the world. I felt like I wasn’t worthy enough to invest in things for myself, otherwise I would be seen as greedy or gluttonous. I believe that people who had money and were rich, were snobby and were not focused on the right things in life. I shouldn’t be frivolous with money. I should be smart and only purchase what is absolutely needed.
And then the vicious cycle begins.
As women we tend to put our own wants and needs aside for others. We deny the fact that deep down inside we have dreams and desires that we long to have filled. The hard truth is, if we don’t acknowledge our dreams, talk about them, and share them with others, they will stay hidden. When something is hidden it will stay buried until someone digs it out. Over time, if we don’t connect with our dreams and desires, we will begin to feel unfulfilled.
So, as we get ready for the holidays I ask you, what do you REALLY DESIRE? And not just what you desire as gifts from your loved ones. Take the time to dig deep and put your desires for your life into the universe.